Mothers Day Blues

When people ask how many children I have, I tell them only one.  I lie!  I have three children, I just don’t have the privilege of two of my daughters.  You see, Sarah was stillborn in 1990, and we had Brianna for only 3 blessed hours in 1991 before she left us.

But people never want to hear that, or even know how to deal with what that all entails as a friend.  So, many of my friends don’t know about ‘all’ of my girls, and I often grieve in private with my daughter and husband.  I remember one “friend” yelling at me when an overwhelming, suffocating moment of grief overtook me at the most inopportune time (as it does).  This was 15 years after I lost both of them and she told me I was being stupid, and I just needed to get the hell over it!!  Needless to say, she is no longer a friend.

For those of you that have lost children, you know, there is no getting “over” it!  There is only getting through it.  We learn to cope with the pain and deal with others uncomfortable moments the best way we know how.  Often at our own expense.  There is no time limit to grief, and no measure on how much love we have for our kids even if we don’t have them any more.  And many like me, have a love hate relationship with Mothers Day!

Mothers Day is often the hardest day of the year for me.   This day is never a good one in our house.  My daughter is amazing and has never tried to make it something that I was not comfortable with.  Only last year she told me that it is only one day of the year.  That she should cherish me like everyday was Mothers Day and not put so much emphasis on one date on the calender!

Would I change things if I could?  in a perfect world, yes I would and I would love to have them back.  But the reality is, if I did have them, I wouldn’t have Liana!!  I am thankful every day (good and bad parenting days) that I have her.

I believe that everything happens for a reason, good or bad, and it’s how we choose to deal with the good and the bad is the most important thing of all.  For those of you that know me personally may not agree, but I try to be positive, kind and loving.  I love to laugh and have fun, and I cherish those who are most important to me. After all, life is about living and having fun.  And for the most part I succeed.  I have a wonderful life, and have amazing friends, new and old, and each one of you has given me something amazing to cherish and learn from.  I only hope I give in return.

So, what was the point of this post? Purely selfish!

This is the first Mothers Day of mine, that I am completely alone.  Hubby is away working and out of phone contact, and my daughter is on holidays with her partner and  I am in a wallowing/grateful frame of mind.

If you have taken the time to read this far, I thank you and I only ask one thing of anyone reading this.  Grab your partner, children, friends and loved ones and hug them, tell them you love them.  Never let it be left unsaid, because fate can, and often does take that opportunity away from us.  After all, who doesn’t love to be hugged?

Electronic hugs are gratefully accepted by email at or SMS a big hug to 043 9943 066   😀

Have a great Day tomorrow and to all my friends……I love you 🙂

Sids for Kids



For Michael & Julie

As per the suggestions of Michael Lee and Julie Holland, I thought I would post the original shot of Greens Pool, then the version without the texture.

The first shot was taken just about first light, with an exposure of 44 seconds.  I liked it, but felt the blue was overpowering.  So I reduced the saturation and lightened the whole image.  Resulting in the second shot.

And anyone that knows me, knows I am a texture fiend, so I put one on, hence shot 3.

All C&C is gratefully accepted 🙂

Greens Pool, Denmark WA

I was excited to attend a workshop with Neal Pritchard at Greens Pool just outside of Denmark.  Not so excited about the 4am start though!

The morning was off to a great start and the weather seemed to be playing the game.  Unfortunately for Neal, that is where the fun ended when he broke his leg about the same time this shot was taken.  I have attempted to edit this shot they way we discussed before the accident, not sure I pulled it off, but I am pretty happy with the result.

I am looking forward to the redoing the workshop when Neal is back on his feet again.

Belle of the Ball

Once again my beautiful 15 year old niece asked me to take some shots of her friends and herself for their school ball.  I have to say I had so much fun with these crazy, beautiful young ladies, that I had to share a couple of shots.

Fuji X100 !!

After a horrendous start to the year, I have found my enthusiasm for photography has been squashed and then stomped upon!! But the amazing True North Mark and Camera Solutions (Murray Street Mall) got my creative juices flowing again.  Thanks guys.

Several photographers met for a walk around Murray Street mall with cameras in hand.  Having rushed to Perth the previous week, I came without my trusty 5D II, but was able to use the Fuji X100.

Not having used the camera before, I was seriously under-prepared for the outing, (and looked like the poor relation next to all the beautiful big Canons, and the odd Nikon) but I soon fell in love with it and am keen to shoot with it some more.

The following are some snaps taken on the night and I must point out that I shamelessly stole the idea for the lady in the fountain from the one and only fabulous Nigel Gaunt of Red Dirt Photography.

Calm after the Storm

This is a 5 stich pano done in CS5.  Gotta say, that program takes all the hard work out of stitching. I haven’t had to retouch at all.  I have left this shot pretty much straight out of the camera, but have added a little cooling filter to take down the yellow tone some.

Albany Marina

Things have been a little hectic lately and I haven’t found the time to post any new shots.  So here is one I found in my archives.

Roadside Art

These metal sculptures are illuminated at night along the side of the freeway.



Recently I had the pleasure of photographing the wedding of  a friend of my husbands.  Such a lovely couple, and I can now claim them as my friends too.  They have four beautiful children and I thought I would share a couple of shots of one of their daughters.

Apparently she is notoriously hard to get a photograph of, but posed for me quite readily when I got there, but, these two shots were actually my test shots of her (hence the horrible background), and after this she refused to pose again 🙂


Blue Wren

I see these Wrens all over my garden, so thought I would try to take a half decent shot.  Birds aren’t my thing, and waiting for this guy to sit still for more than half a millisecond, I almost gave up.  But am quite happy with these shots.

This guy has quite the harem going, but I couldn’t catch the females.